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| Monday, January 21st, 2002
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1:54 am - i wanna be so hardcore PUSSY
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imajika gave me this tape by this band called pajama harvey.i figure it's that cause she abbreve-ated it to just pj,and thatswhat i callw aht i sleep in.
last night i saw this movie called "bring it on" and it was so funny! but i've also seen a movie called "doom generation" and i SO want to be the girl in that! she has so many boyfriends and everyone loves her so much, and she is so sexy, at least thats what the other people were saying, yuo kjnow that girl si really a witch?oh and she swore so much so i've decided to swear heaps too, i think it'll make me sound like i got more attitude hey.
*1*i met this bullshit disgustingly nauseating scabby cute bastard and he was like REALLY nice to fuckin' my stupid ass, he thought my oozing piece of shit new pink high heels didn't even look really fucking brilliant with the fucking purple leg warmers, rhonda my motherfucking stepsister dressed my stupid ass that mornign and our parents made my stupid ass wear that bastard cuz you are one molested shit and that piece of shit was that shit birthday. i made imajika come shopping with my stupid ass for rhonda's really fucking brilliant present.she chose ths severely nauseating diary with a lock on that shit, with bits cut out for photo's, and even had "pink power" printed on each page, and a goddamn piece of shit new hair crimper. lucky i didn;t have to fuckin' pay for that shit, rhonda's dad did cause i said i didn't wanna pay for anything really GOOD unless i could use that shit too. Just close your brains and pretend you're holding my scooter. and i still dont even have any drug money anyway, since i am trying to fuckin' save all my fucking pocket drug money, all the fucking $5 a week, for a piece of shit new sweatshirt with pockets so god-damn i can hold hands with punky asshole boys in secret!
so god-damn anwyway, this bullshit dirty bastard i met that day when i was sitting trying to look horrendously nauseating on the fucking asphalt courts. all the fucking fucking assholes were yelling at my stupid ass to fuckin' move cuase them nutsacks were trying to fuckin' play basketball, even though them fellaters hated my stupid ass being there and perving at my stupid rack, i so god-damn felt like reece withespoon in 'legally blonde' cept not as incredibly and with darker hair.:(
so god-damn anwyay, this bullshit cute hairy bastard came up to fuckin' my stupid ass and he was wearing a motherfucking red bonds shirt and black cord jeans,with light brown hair to that bastard's cheeks, all sorta messy but OBVIOUSLY washed and brushed that morning, and he has the fucking ball but he threw that bastard back to the fucking other juicy assholes and sat down and talked to my stupid ass about wanting to move away over to the fucking benches so god-damn we could talk and shit. I should crack your porkhole. and so god-damn we moved and we talked and shit. mostly about how in the hell much i hate mr dahlberg now ever since he gave my stupid ass a goddamn F for algebra even when i'd been that bastard's special "friend" all summer and every shitty thing! this bullshit cockgobbling bastard told me that his name was Lucan[pronunces LUKE- KIN] and he plays sports AND guitar! he is kinda poplular, but he also (in addition to the fact that you're a bastard) goes into the fucking music rooms some lunchtimes and practices.i tolded that shit about imajika and how in the hell much i wish i could be in a band like hole or pajama harvey, but no motherfucking one i know wants to fuckin' teach my stupid ass cept imajika but she is a "f'ing great" teacher, she just gets mad at my stupid ass when i like drop the fucking guitar and shit. You are a shithole. then, shit, the fucking bell went and so god-damn we made a date for tomorrow lunch time, we're gonna meet at the fucking same place and then, shit, go have lunch in the fucking music rooms and he's gonna teach my stupid ass some guitar shit! how in the hell RADMOD AWESOME!
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*1*-->i needed soem help speaking with swears...
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Burned by the Burnmaker!
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current mood: hardcore nasty!hee!
current music: pajama harvey- dress
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| Monday, January 14th, 2002
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2:25 am - when did i go stupid?
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i have been reading all through my old journal entries and i think that i have turned dumber lately. i have come to the idea that it's because of drugs. I don't remember ever taking any, really, not in a naughty way, but when corey mason, this girl who didnt get into cheer squad either, well, when she didn't get on the squad, she tried to be cool, but in that other way thats not even cool, and went and sat on the grassy hill with all the smelly hippies who never ever wear eau di cologne or anything, and she started to take drugs. she used to be super smart, she never even got into trouble for not doign work cause she was always so smart and did it for homework and stuff, you know? but well, when she went on the hill, she jut turned dumb. she never really turned smelly, she was brought up much too clean to become smelly, but she got messy kind of hair and flowy brown and purple clothes[and anyone who is anyone who knows anyone who is popular knows that brown and purple are terrible colours together, unless they're mixed with pink, in a pleated short tartan skirt.] and it was all cause of drugs, she turned dumber, which means that proberly the same thing happened to me.
I also think I might have caught it from this boy I went on a date with. I cant rememebr his name now, it was like, 5 days ago, but he came up to me in school and said that I look like a "dollars and sense kind of girl" and he'd like to introduce me to his member. I was like" ohmg, he so doesn't make sense" but he had on this mooks shirt that is ultra new so I figured if I said no in front of everyone I'd get a bad name as being a prune. So I said we could go on a date the next night. But the next night, when we went out, he was wearing the same shirt so I think ti must be the only shirty he owns, and he didn't even have a club or anything. Cause when I said "so you're the presdident of a club are you?" and he looked confused, and I was like "didn't you say there was a member or soemthing you wanted me to meet, but he just sort of laughed quietly so I think he must have lied to try to get me to be interested in him.
For our date he took me to a part some skater boi was having, and I was totally annoyed cause if I'd knew we'd go to skater crew party I'd have worn my cherry cherry shirt, instead of my red chiffon pinafore, but iu still looked hot. We werent there very long before the guy, whatever his name was gave me heaps of drinks and then we went out to the front garden, cause there were too many people out the back and we went to some neighborhood persons car and kissed and stuff, and before I even knew it the guy had his fingers on my panties! but I had to go cause it was almost 10.30 and buffy was going to be on. Buffy is so cool, so I watch it all the time, cause i want to try and be like her!
current mood:  amused
current music: pink-get the party started
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| Friday, January 11th, 2002
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3:42 am - omg! look what's happened to my friend!
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| Friday, November 23rd, 2001
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6:05 pm - dont even TRY to win i am the KING
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so THERE you stupid blue fairy bitch!i am notr the happy very withyou, and you are even ugly, match your journal if you arestyleistic, and make a user icon of you very evry even OWN!even go away!no wunder i dotn listen to you anymore, ti's not even you that is britnet spears it's someone else thaty ou are1 i could even be lice alice in wunderland and you could get you head chopped off, cause you stole that queens tarts and then TURNED INTO WON!
so bite me you're dumbfuckin head.
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| Monday, November 19th, 2001
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1:02 am
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| Saturday, November 17th, 2001
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12:24 am - i carnt not believe the hide of sum people
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i was just looking and saw that someone called britbrit has me on her friends list. she is like, britney spears the real real one, but really dumb, and she is so dumb in the brain she stole my user icon!please people go and tell her she is the wrongist stupid girl in my lfe, and yours too. cause she doesn't even make the colours match right, and all i can think is "if you wore those colours to cheer squad tryouts you'd never get in." how can a girl like britney spears have so much NO fashion taste and cents?it makes me want to cry except i am wearing contacts that make my eyes go all dark blue like denimn and if i cry i am afraid the dye will fall out of inside the contacts lends and dye my eye permanantly. would that hurt?
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| Monday, November 12th, 2001
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1:28 am - i wrote a song!
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"i thinked today
i like the way
you touch me up
and dont get stuck
when you say go
i dont say no
coz if i get down
you wont frown
the backseat aint big
but there aint too many boys fucking me right nowwwwwwwwwwwaaaa"
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| Saturday, November 10th, 2001
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12:09 am - the fatter you get, the more there is to wash.
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so i decided to stop being so grossly overwait, and i went on a dyet. all i did was drink water, and suddenly i got all skinny again. so that solved my problim about the boys not likeing me anymore. and now i am starting to get my cheers going gooder again. couse i am going to try out for the team again next year.YAY1 how radmod, if i get in, it'll be soo cool, like last junior year all over again, only FUNNER!
no one really noticed i was gone all that time i was at the mental house. when peeple aksed me where i had been, i said "in a mental intatute" and they all just laffed, they thinked i was being funny, and then i'd tell them all aboot my aventures there and i become all poplear again. i even writed a 50 word essay abowt it for mister hyben, and he even said it was so good, but he dropped it on the ground, under his desk, and cause of his back and how it was so sore, he aksed me to get it far him. i cood tell he just wanted me to do sexy stuff to him cuse i did to marcus, and i was all like "ahh, i think my scars are reopining and bleeding internally it think i ahve to go to the dentist!!" and just left.
then otuside, i seed that bitch and TOTALLY uncoowl geek, my stepsister rhonda, and she was all like hugging me and telling me how cool i'd look with my fringe all teased up. she is such a dag. but i still cant forget that time in her bedroom, which she never tolded no one about, thankfooly.
i think i've growed up a bit now. i'm more matoore. i throwed away all of those old hair clips i had, eccept for the ones imajika gived to me, the are so radmod, i wear them all the times. now my hair is dark again cause i coodn't be bothered to have a job to pay for hair die, and my stepfather doesn't even like it when i say if he gives me money for hair die i'll give him a lap dance. cept he likd it when i gave him a lap dance in the hopes that he'd give me money for hair die anyway, i cood tell he liked it bye the way he went all red and yelled at me that i am a skanky hoar and need to be sent to the mental place forever. if i hadnt run away the next thing he'd have said wood have been:" you are so sexy when you lapdance me, here is money for your hair to be died."
ok, so now i am a bit more skinnier agean i am allowed to sit with the cheerleaders again, yay. *does a cheer*
current mood: cheerful
current music: kylie minogue-cant get you out of my head
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| Wednesday, June 6th, 2001
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5:02 pm
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i dont even know if my real hair is dark anymore, it's blonde now but i have dark hair down my panties, does thta count?also i sing but i prefer to scream, klike courtney, courtney love. and i think i am getting a bit fat cause now people dont ask me to suck them off anymore. :(
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| Tuesday, May 29th, 2001
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1:51 pm - ui never date
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i never update. i think i am depressed. i have taken to saying othing in class except "ummm, cheerleading?" and "go team!"
i dont even say "huh, sir?" anymore...i'm losing my reputation for a party girl and easy slut and none of thwe popular people talk to me anymore much...i think i am turning into people like jenny and imajika, cause they reckoned they werent popular at high school either...but i was almost acheerleader, i wasn't always a weirdo like them(no offence guys, but you claimded it yourselves). i'm going to go break somethng of my stepsister rhonda's.
love from bratney starr
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| Saturday, May 19th, 2001
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5:40 pm - eat a dick!
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no thankyou berry mush. but its funny nontheless. i havent splke iwth jen in a bvetr long time. i alwasy talk with cass though. she is my idol. i wish i cuold be with cass the way jen is. at least i think they still are??? anyway...
its almost summer vacation. next year wil be better. i want to be grunge. grunge is so not dead people. what are you talking ahout?
i hate the fucking summer, put on a fucking sweater!!-cl
ok, i hae to go get ready for work now. hi jen and cass and everyone else on my lists, YOU SHOULD REALLY ADD ME TOO!
<3muah*
(i love you cassie my sassy sads forever)
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| Wednesday, May 16th, 2001
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4:11 pm - ohmig guys, i am a GEEK!
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i am like SOOOO embarrassed, i had to get GLASSES!i am like, the most GEEKIEST girl i know!well, except for that geeky nerdbraingirl with the bad red hair and the bad bad broken glasses, but i dopnt care about ehr cause she is SO icky no one even counts her a human bean. NO WAY MAN, i had to get glasses!i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOO a geek!i only went cause john parker was working there on weekends.i'm so in shame mode now, i hve to go and make myself vomit so i;m skinnier so that i will be more attractive and people wont notice my four eyes.
current mood:  geeky
current music: lady marmalade- pink/mya/lil kim/christina
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| Thursday, May 3rd, 2001
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10:17 pm - old as old
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Sunday, October 15th, 2000:"I hate this journal..i can never remember anything pof worth to write ion it...that and being sick has tuned the last 24 hours into a somewhat surreal dream-sequence of bomiting up painkillers and being so SO sad about it...piankillers should not be wasted on bomiters...it's just wrong..just lucky it was not anything with codine in, other wise i'd probably have cried... :)"
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| Sunday, March 18th, 2001
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10:42 pm - last month i was sent away
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it's true. iw as like, totally fucked off by my parents to a mental asylum!they reckoned it was just a place for misguided teens, but there was some fucked up nuts there, i'll tell you. They made me so mad and so sad and so scared, i just so wanted to lkeave. they always aksed why i was there, but i never knowed, you kjnow?i just woke up one day to my parents telling me to pack my shit lets go.and while i was there , in the place, they made me do stuff like group therapie and stuff, which is just anover name for gossip session, we used to do those at school, with the other cheer squad girls, even though i never got in and only fucking terrie mason ever definately got in even though she was never never never giving the coach ANY head and if she did it wasn't good cause she gave me head once in front of the other squad girls as dare in the showers and it was so crap i've never ever had worse head than what she gave me she deserves a fucking knife to her cunt the fucking squad-place stealing slut!
at the place there was this girl called Aidie, and she wa there becuse she wagged school too much. but i reckon it was cause she was so fucking ugly. she'd NEVER get into the cheer squad.she didnt even want to practice kissing.and i said "oh, i don't even want to kiss you you're so ugly i meant you could practice on the mirror, as if i'd want to kiss you" andnthen i had to leave cause she had this funny look in her eyes like she was going to cry aand when she cried her eyelids went all puffy and her lips went all white and that made her even uglier nan't hang out woth ugly people cause ot might ruin my reputation it might make me look uglier than i really am, i only hang out with pretty people, like the pretty girl who was there cause people kept calling her names so she tried to change her face all by herself. i think she was trying so hard, and that is so important cause the harder you try to be beuatiful the better, right?she had this big huge scar from where she tried to cut of her face, right under her jawline, and it must have worked cause she was real prett and not ugly anymore like she must have been. and she always wanted to practice kissing. and she wanted to practice touching and stuff too, and practive giving hed, she liked to practice giving herself faclifts, but on my arm, and that freaked me out, cause she was only using a crayon from drawing time..
i had a boyfriend there too, only no one knew, we were only night time boyfriends, his name was marcus, and hewads the sweetest boy ever i had met. he had alot of female friends in there, i think alot of them thought he was their boyfriend, cause they'd flirt and be all sweet to him and stuff, and talk about seeing him in their rooms later on in the night, but i know they're just jealous cause it was my he'd come and see in the nighttimes, about 3 times a week.and he aid they reckoned he had a problem back home, with girls, that he liked them too much and used to just have sex with all of them and soemtimes even when they didnt want to, which is just rot, cause all girls want to ave sex, i don't see how they wpuld think marcus having sex is a problem. he said they reckoned he was getting "out of hand" be we reckoned they were just being stupid, and probably just jealous. cause marcus would be all like that, he said he was a one woman man and wouldnt be all slutty like that.I told him i loved him and he promised that when he gets out we'll get married and have sex all day long. i reckon that might hurt a bit, but marcus is so powerful sometimes he just makes me do it, and then i like it once he gets going, but only a little bit.
i have lots more to say but my stepmom made me take my medicine about 20 mins ago, and i am starting to et all wooxy so i'd better go and sleep. wonder if everyone missed me at school,i bet they did. i strt bck in a few days, depends on how i'm feeling. i can't wait to go. i hope they don't see the scars i got in there, how embarrassing!
love bratney
P.S. Hey Imajika and Chemicalwedding!i've missed you guys!hope you werent too worried when i left so suddenly!i'll go cruise thru your journals to see how worried you were about me, hey!
love always, bratster
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| Thursday, January 25th, 2001
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12:56 pm - gimme a 'c!' gimmie an 'a!' gimmie an 'ssi' gimme an 'e!'
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CASSIE!!
where you been girlfriend?I've been waiting and eaiting for ages for you to call, what you been doing?
anyway, i gotta go, cause rhonda is taking me to the 'roller-rink'.Shoulsd be lots of fun, rhonda and thtephanie both say theres lots of cute boys there!yeah!!
love bratney
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| Tuesday, January 16th, 2001
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3:33 pm - "I'm not everygirl and i don't
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need no man to validate me"-Pink
Cass told me i should say this to myself at least once a day.And it's cool, cause she's used lyrics to a band i like, pink, she is so cool.
So i'ver been satying that all day. but them this other part of me thinks :i'm not everygirl, and i don't need no man, except to DATE me"
ha ha., that's so funny, i'm the furnierst.
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| Friday, January 12th, 2001
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2:52 pm - like imajika and i will do it too
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"my raw hand fever blisterwatch me watch me disspear"
Selfish, flirty, moody. You like: romance, love, lust, gossip, pain, suffering, and emotional disembowelment. You dislike: anything that moves you from your palace at the center of the universe. If Bette Midler were more attractive, she'd be a Drama Queen, but we don't let her use TheSpark.
Admit that you're slightly selfish, in need of love, and you talk a lot. You want a guy, or maybe a bunch of guys, that will fawn over you, listen to what you have to say, and look good on your arm.
OK, now that that's out on the table--in total, you're not so bad. You're quite affectionate once you find someone to meet your high standards. And you're assertive, which many people find refreshing. You will have a successful career because you're always ready to climb. Also, you're probably physically attractive. You move well (like a sophisticated woman) because of your self-awareness.
this is what the spark.com matcher said aboput me. cause imajika put her one in her journal so i wanted to do it too.
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| Tuesday, January 9th, 2001
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4:50 pm - http://www.angelfire.com/rock2/bratney/holestarr.html
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theres nothing on it yet, cause Imajika says theres still lots to do, and she had to go anyway, but thats the addy for the future.
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3:31 am - I'M ON SPARK MATCH!
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yeah!cool as! imajika directed me there, cause she's on it too. She's Sidewalk Princess. I'm
'Bratney Starr'
so everyone message me!
i am gunna meet so many cool sexy boys on there!
anyway, thats all. i am gunna put my picture up on it tomorrow. right now i'm really tired. it took me a few hours to do the test, cause i didn't study for it and i had to think about it real hard, ya know?
some people tell me i remind them of 'Rollergirl' in 'Boogie Nights'.
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